Minecraft – A Software Engineer’s Experience Part 3

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
You should start at the beginning: Minecraft – A Software Engineer’s Experience Part 1 I started playing Minecraft early this past August. What started as an innocent and fascinating experience in a "real world" simulator eventually took a turn. I spent about a month happy as could be with an extremely limited world view: break down the rocks, harvest the garden, live on, break some more rocks, enjoy the sunset, fish, repeat tomorrow. Then Andy's friends joined, right around the time I realized the Minecraft world is in actuality more like the real world than we'd care to admit: It's a massive massive expansive world with limited resources, but more than enough resources to last several real-life lifetimes of gameplay. What's more, the "world" we played in was shared by…
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Cats and Dogs

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
My wife is a cat person. I am a dog person. I do not understand why my wife is a cat person. Why be a cat person, right? Cats are neurotic, fiercely independent, super picky, indifferent to your existence, jerkface assholes. Agreed? Good. Dogs on the other hand are sweet, pleasant and so damn simple. The end. I despise cats. I wouldn't say I hate them, but I passionately dislike them at times. --- When we got married, we had a 5 year plan to get a dog that delivered in about 1 year. I fell in love with our dog in two seconds and that was that. Amanda took longer to come around. She liked the dog, the dog was cute, or whatever, but she didn't LOVE the dog…
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The Fall From Grace (Life & Career Lessons, 2013)

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
2013, for me, sucked. The overly-simplistic way to summarize would be to say that I simply made a bad career move. It's more than that, though. The person I had become leading into 2013 was not who I want to be - to be clear, I did not say it's not who I wanted to be, rather, who I was aiming for becoming is no longer who I wish to be. For me, if nothing else, that's the main takeaway from 2013: people can (and do) change who they are and who they want to be - and that's ok, it happens. The trick is remembering how much impact our choices can affect others. --- It's as if I've come full circle - a few years ago I left a…
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Creative Bankruptcy

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
Commiting to a rambling blog entry at 7a without sleep is always a good place to start. Music: Matthew Good - Non Populous TLDR: When it feels topsy-turvy, it's time for a break. It's okay to take a break. Thursday, August 22: "Man, this stuff + work drama makes me so want to quit all of this crap. ever feel that way?" .. "Yes." I spent a large part of the year working on a half-dozen personal projects in my spare time, enjoying myself quite a bit - until I didn't. I could have been stretching myself too thin, it could have been that my latest career move was a bad one, it could have been that the projects I'd kicked out earlier in the year didn't bring results, it…
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It doesn’t matter.

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
I haven't been taking many photographs recently. When I analyze it, the story goes: I started sorting through years of photos, trimming the fat, collecting the better bits into something worthwhile. Sorting years of photos proved such a daunting task that at one point early on I was able to calculate how long it would take to finish this personal project. I determined it would take a long time - too long, really. So, why shoot more? Why bother? My grandfather was a photographer too. Always with the camera. Every family get together, several photos a day. He always promised us that if we made a funny face, the photo would be printed at 8x10 size. I saw dozens of hilarious/embarassing 8x10s of various relatives over the years. I'm halfway…
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Loss is a sickness.

Life and Philosophy
We lose stuff all the time, our keys, loose change forever embedded into secret areas of the couch, occasionally, our wallet. Some stuff matters a little, most doesn't matter at all. What we do not lose so often, for better or for worse, are the things that matter. It may seem good fortune to live a pristine life of luck, free from true loss, but in a sense, a life without house fires, theft, or death, is a heavier tragedy than a life with those experiences. A life without loss, is a life unlived - a life of innocence and ignorance, a blissful experience missing the bigger picture of truth: the simultaneously tragedy and beauty of the human experience and mortality. Everyone experiences loss and reacts differently, some people hoard…
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Oh, you think meritocracy exists? Tell me more about how you’re always overlooked.

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
So you want to talk about meritocracy, and how hard work will pay off, and justice will come your way someday? Cool story, bro. My turn, let me start with a little story that's slightly less crazy than your imaginary meritocracy pipe dream - something ridiculous about growing up religious. I grew up being an ungrateful little shit, coming from a long line of ungrateful little shits, growing up religious in Texas. Don't get me wrong, I didn't have to be an ungrateful little shit - after all, I was born a white male, in America. A lot of my first-world-problems complaints in life have never really amounted to more than this: Religious in the South should be qualified, because down here religion can sometimes (or sadly, often..) be different…
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A Trillion Dollars & E.T.

Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
Music: Blonde Redhead - 23 (the song) This is one of those fun, or, perhaps, overwhelming number games. It's going to be like the drake equation, where we're throwing numbers around, stacking assumption on assumption on assumption, and surely several assumptions will be wrong, and the number of zeros will get quite insane, but in the end the point will be: there's life out there. The other day I was at a concert with my wife, for this phenomenal one-man-country-blues-band called 'Shakey Graves'. This guy's amazing to see live, super intense, and supremely talented. He left his guitar behind at the last show a town or three over, so he had to rent some equipment that night. Naturally, his rental equipment popped a string or two during the very first…
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Waking With The Sun

did you mean tumble?, Life and Philosophy, Midnight Ramblings
Music: Blink 182 - Pretty Little Girl .. It's time to switch from our designer's credit card to the LLC's, because, we're lucky enough to have enough income that our LLC credit card can cover that no-longer-free Amazon VM. Adam tries his best to convert non-straight-forward AWS pricing structures into toddler level english, so idiot peer, me, can understand what the hell we're looking at. He repeats himself 3 or 4 times, switching back and forth between 3 tables that might as well read 'lorem ipsum..' on them - it's all greek to me, when he switches to hard numbers from our past month's hosting to translate gigabytes to dollars - we both stop talking. That's not right, 90 gigabytes in transfer last month? What the hell. We're being hacked,…
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